Before I jump into the blog post, I have exciting news!!! I am giving away a FREE movie ticket to a special screening of Embrace. You can join me Monday, October 3rd at 7:30 pm for this wonderful documentary about a body image movement that was developed by Taryn Brumfitt. The showing will be held at at the Bel Air Cinema in Abingdon.
You have three chances to win. Just leave a comment below about why you think positive body image is important for all bodies in todays society. You can also leave a comment on my fb page Just Me Jenn B or leave a comment on Instagram @ JustmeJennb78. I will randomly select a winner on Saturday evening. This is Just me Jenn B’s first GIVE AWAY!!
Disclaimer: I am not being endorsed by Taryn Brumfitt, I am offering this give away out of the goodness of my heart to help promote positive body image, because we know it’s an uphill battle in today’s world.
Okay,on to the blog post…
To say September has been a busy month would be an understatement. It’s also been a bit of an emotional roller coaster of laughter, tears, excitement, and even fears. Please bear with me because I have a lot to say, and I might be all over the place in this post. The good stuff is toward the end, but don’t skip ahead 🙂
At the beginning of the month, Bob and I had the privilege of volunteering at the Boy and Girls Club. We had a blast teaching the kids to have fun with fitness and teach them new ways to move more. Honestly, I’m not sure who had more fun, the kids or us.
Last weekend Bob and I rented a booth at Healthy Harford Day to reach out to the community about ways to better their health, and yes, to promote my personal training business. Honestly, I forgot all about promoting my personal training business because I was having so much fun chatting away, and meeting new faces. From babies, to birds, to grown adults, everyone was having a good time. I saw some old friends and got to do what I love most: promote self-love by talking about body positive health and fitness. It brought me so much joy to see how far the Healthy Harford Day event has grown over the last few years. Hartford County is growing in so many positive ways.
I had to say goodbye to two friends who moved away to New York. Beth and Buddy have been my clients for over three years now, and they have also become good friends of our family. I was sad to see them leave, but now we have a new place to visit when we want to get away.
A few times this month my kids needed some guidance to help get them though some growing pains they were going through. When you’re a mom you will drop everything when your kids need you, no matter how old they get, or how hectic your schedule is.
In addition to all the above I have been frustrated because I’m trying to grow my business. This means creating a FB page for Just Me Jenn B and having to update Instagram and send emails and all the things that I honestly don’t enjoy doing. I find it tedious and I also don’t want to come off as annoying to others.
I love blogging, writing, motivating and training others. I am very much a relational person and I am very loyal, but playing the social media game feels disingenuous and doesn’t allow me to really connect with people the way I would like…In person.
Starting a business is scary. I have been playing it safe for years now. Training clients, small groups and such out of the comfort of mine or other peoples homes, but reaching out to grow and help more people makes me a bit fearful and vulnerable. I’m putting more time and money into growing Just Me Jenn B. It’s a scary thing! What if I fail? Or what if I succeed, but I lose my passion for what I love to do and I get burned out? More than anything, I am afraid that if I didn’t give it my best try, and did nothing, I would never know what could have been. So, I am facing my fears and anxiety head on. Even if one or all of those fears come true it will be worth it, because if nothing else I know I will have learned something new about myself and will come out on the other end of it all a stronger person.
For me, personal training is so much more than getting people to look good, lose weight, get stronger,and get physically healthy. Those are just the side effects that come with physical fitness and making healthy decisions when it comes to food. What I am really passionate about is assisting people to find the best version of themselves! Not just on the surface, but deep down inside. What drives them? What makes them want to be better? How can they learn to use and appreciate the gifts they already own?
Last night at my women’s small group our leader quoted the following; “Every fisherman knows that the good fish are deep down under the surface. Yes, you can catch fish that are closer to to the top, but the really good ones are deeper down in the water.” In order to become the best version of ourselves we need to be willing to go a little deeper to catch that good fish. Yes, it might be a little dark and murky down there, perhaps even cold, but how do we ever really learn to love, appreciate and become our most authentic selves if we don’t take time to go a little deeper?
When we start exploring, we might not like what we see at first. You see, our ego is going to get in the way. Another yummy nugget of truth that I have learned from this small group is that ego is a way of protecting ourselves. Think about that for a moment. Have you ever known someone that has a huge ego? Perhaps this person doesn’t do well with any kind of criticism, even constructive criticism. Their ego is protecting them from something that’s going on deep down under the surface where the big fish are. Okay, enough about fish…you get the point.
I have an ego, you have an ego, we all have egos. I have had to check mine at the door many times; but what if instead of checking it at the door like a fur coat at a fancy restaurant, we sit down and explore it. Figure out why and what it’s trying to protect us from. I encourage you to try it. The next time you feel yourself threatened, vulnerable, or possibly even being competitive, ask yourself why? What’s happening below the surface that is causing you to go into protection mode? Have patience for those who are prideful and egotistical, especially yourself.
True story about my ego: I know a woman who is very athletic, kind, happy, a good mom, has a happy marriage, and to top it all off she is beautiful and very well liked. She is physically stronger than me, and was able to progress quicker with certain weight lifting movements than I was. Whenever she posted about her life on social media it always seemed to be “perfect.” My ego got in the way of a possible friendship I could have had with her. My ego told me that she was too perfect, not real or authentic. That her lifts could use improvement… etc..etc… Truth is she is a really wonderful human being, and her lifts looked really good! My ego was protecting me by feeding me those thoughts to keep me from feeling incompetent. So, I had to go deep down below the surface and figure out why I was feeling incompetent. What I found wasn’t pretty…Jealously, pride, shame, unworthiness, just to name a few. Once I identified those feelings, I started to to go even deeper and unravel some other truths. Only after figuring out these things and facing them was I able to identify who I am as an individual. My own gifts, my own strengths, what makes me unique. What makes me Jenn B.
I’m a work in progress, but it’s progress that I am striving for, not perfection.